Saturday, August 18, 2012

When you feel that something is broken inside you is not easy to fix it

Pink - Heartbreaker




Today is another one of those days where I waste my time thinking about how to erase you from my life. I'm not sure if I want to go through with this, but I had never been so hard to let someone go. I can hardly express my feelings and I have fear of saying what I really feel. I thought I had finally found what I wanted and I had begun to believe it could be possible that love exists for me. I admit I hate it when things do not go the way I want, I admit that I hate to hear you talk like you're superior to me because you have lived more experiences than me. I confess I'm dying of jealousy when your lips utter another name up to hate you. The truth is that I felt you were mine,but you weren't and you are not. . I figured what I needed to imagine. The truth is that I use to hurt people to make up my frustrations and sometimes I made unnecessary conflicts. The truth is that I love you but I force myself to hate you to protect me from suffering. Everything would have been easier if you had been honest with me, if you had opened your heart like I did. Some time ago I try not to give rise to doubts and but they are winning and I'm starting to distrust and even try to ignore my intuition. I think is enough and I can not help it, I never known who you really are.

Evanescence - My Immortal