Tuesday, September 14, 2010

The Rasmus Lost And Lonely

Do you wanna know how I feel the most of the time LOST AND LONELY. I thought you will rescue me from my loneliness but you sank me deeper into it .....




the rasmus - heartbreaker







I can relate with a couple of thing of this song....




Well anyway it's a long story.
She's been waiting for so long
Still got the songs in her mind and the autograph on the photograph
She's got a past full of secrets
She's got a clock on her feelings back from the days when she used to have wings
She had a dream full of anger
She had a dream full of action
Afraid to get old she feels so cold
Such a typical reaction

Oh yeah, oh yeah. She wanted to be a heartbreaker
Oh yeah. She was so greedy but a lousy lovemaker
Oh yeah, oh yeah. She wanted to be a heartbreaker

She used to be the queen of the scene
She had a key but she lost it
Nothing's gonna last and the time goes fast - she knows
She had a man but she messed it up again
She had a chance but she blew it
She's gotta little baby boy in her womb but she doesn't have a clue yet

Oh yeah...

Striking her down
Crushing her to the ground

Thursday, August 12, 2010

A Broken heart for a Heartbreaker

blood runs through this broken heart
someone laugh at you heartbreaker
what are gonna do now?
you cant enjoy the pain of others anymore.
Is your turn to suffer, and it tastes bitter, isn't it?

who is devastated now?
who cries at night and who torments with bad thoughts?
Can you tell me who is next to the phone right now?
How many days have passed away since the last time you heard his voice?
That hurts, right?

everything turned black around, your tears are of blood
you can not react ..
someone gave you to drink your own poison, heartbreaker?
and now you begin to understand what rejection means,
who are dying while others are happy?
someone is denying you what you used to deny? .

who is devastated now?
who writes love songs and is alone in her room
to whom it belongs now the silence of loneliness?
How many days have passed away since you tore a heart that loved you honestly?


Heartbreaker don't cry
Nothing is real in your life
is time to face the truth
everything was your choice
there is no chance to change
and hide all your pain
everything is done.

your mind begins to blocking ,
and becomes distressing to know how much pain you caused by fear of not being loved
and although you knowing that the damage you've done someday it will return to you
and you continued hurting to calm your loneliness
to make you feel really strong when you really are the weakest





la sangre corre a traves de ese corazon roto
alguien se burló de ti rompecorazones
que haras ahora?
ya no puedes disfrutar el dolor ajeno
te toca a ti sufrir, y eso sabe amargo no es cierto ?

quien está devastado ahora?
quien llora en las noches y se atormenta con malos pensamientos?
Puedes decirme quien esta junto al telefono en este momento?
Cuantos dias pasaron ya desde la ultima vez que escuchaste su voEso duele, no es cierto?

todo se torno negro, tus lagrimas son de sangre
no puedes reaccionar..
alguien te dio de beber de tu propio veneno, rompecorazones
ahora comienzas a entender lo que significa el rechazo,
ahora eres tu quien esta agonizando mientras otros son felices
te estan negando lo que solías negar tu.

quien esta devastado ahora?
quien escribe canciones de amor y esta solo en su habitacion
a quien le pertenece ahora el silencio de la soledad?
Cuantos dias pasaron ya desde que destrozaste un corazon que te amaba honestamente?


tu mente comenzo a bloquearse,
se torna angustiante saber cuanto dolor causaste por miedo a no ser amado
y aunque sabias que todo el daño que has hecho algun dia volveria a ti
continuaste lastimando para calmar tu soledad
para sentirte fuerte cuando en verdad eres la persona mas debil

Monday, August 9, 2010

2x years of my life hating the world for refusing my dreams. 2x years wondering why I am a person steeped in negativity, distrust, insecurity and jealous. The answer in some ways I know, but I dont wanna accept it completely and easily. I'm in love. Never thought I feel this way , is supposed I should to be happy to have found the person that I was looking for ... But .... do not, in me round the ghost of jealousy and insecurity, I am not a woman capable of awakening love in someone. I feel like this , through my fault because my insecurity, my fear of not being loved makes me to see ghosts where there are non. My mind plays another trick on me but ... how do I get out of this? I wish I could but I can not enjoy it, I feel that I can never express my feelings, fear is a dangerous enemy and I'm not ready to face him yet......


2x años de mi vida odiando al mundo por negarme mis sueños. 2x años preguntandome por que soy un ser impregnado de negatividad, desconfianza,inseguridad y celos. La respuesta en cierto modo la sé, pero no quiero admitirla completamente y tan facilmente.
Estoy enamorada. Nunca pense sentirme asi como me siento, se supone que deberia estar contenta por haber encontrado a la persona que tanto busqué...pero....no, dentro de mi ronda el fantasma de los celos y la inseguridad, no me siento una mujer capaz de despertar amor en alguien. El me atrapo como nadie nunca lo hizo, y creanme que se de lo que estoy hablando. Pero tambien confieso que me siento asi , por mi culpa porque mi inseguridad , mi miedo a no ser amada me hace ver fantasmas donde no los hay. Mi mente me juega otra mala pasada pero...como hago para salir de esto? Desearia poder disfrutar pero no logro hacerlo, siento que nunca podre expresar mis sentimientos, el miedo es un enemigo peligroso al que aun no se como enfrentar

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I don't know how to handle this feeling, I dont know. I get depressed and I am filled with dark thoughts most of the time. I have a terrible inferiority complex that doesn't leave me in peace. Now, I cant stop compare me with the ex-girlfriends of the person I love. He committed the error of showing me their photos and tell me about them, not noticing that I have this complex so destructive. I look them , and look at myself and I just want to cry . They are smarter than me, have more experience in love, are living in other countries and I? I'm here, and still unable to fly and face the world. I despair wondering what he saw in them. I know they are more beautiful than me, thats clear , perhaps because of their intelligence, they have a career and I'm just an idiot that feeds on their dreams. But I'm almost certain that they didn't treat him as I treat him , I know that sometimes I act like a child and I see the world differently. I have fear, I tried to be a special person to him but I couldn't. I honestly feel that this is so .... And this feeling is made worse when I realize that he is my inspiration and my desires to live and I hate that feeling. There are many reasons but perhaps the more painful is that I can not be his support, I cannot contain or teachs him nothing. My life was and remains different from his and the image I have of him bring me down even more. Because he makes me feel more complete, he has known how to hear me and made me feel protected and I'm desperate to see I am not the most special person for him as he is for me. That hurts and it hurts me.
If he only knew that I think of him every single second of my life and when I reminds his voice, his chats a sweet smile escapes from my lips maybe he can understand he makes me the happiest girl in the world and I would give my all to make him happy.