Bad Feeling

I know I said that would make you feel loved every minute of your life
  I tried, believe me
but   confusión  won the battle
  I away you  from me.
  when I want to be by your side
  I ignore your calls when really dying to hear your voice
  Fear is what I feel, I can not against it.
  Help me
  Come, tell me you can handle my fear
  you do not let me drop me, that together we can overcome
  I can only see through a black glass
  Show me the exit , if there is one 
  I have the bad feeling that you get tired of me
  I have the bad feeling
  you'll come back  soon but not for me, but for  someone else
  I need answers that only you can give me
  it's just a bad feeling
  none of this will happen ...?






Mal presentimiento
Sé que dije que te haria sentir querido cada minuto de tu vida
Traté, creeme
pero la confusion gano la batalla
te estoy alejando de mi.
cuando deseo estar a tu lado
ignoro tus llamados cuando en verdad muero por escuchar tu voz
Miedo es lo que siento, no puedo contra él.
Ayudame
Ven, dime que puedes soportar mi temor
que no me dejaras caer , que juntos podremos superarlo
solo puedo ver a traves de un cristal negro
Muestrame la salida, si es que la hay.
Tengo el mal presentimiento de que te cansaste de mi
tengo el mal presentimiento
que pronto volveras pero no por mi, sino por alguien mas
necesito respuestas, que solo tu me puedes dar
es solo un mal presentimiento
nada de esto sucederá...?

I wonder if you'll be thinking of me in this cold and lonely night
have you ever done?
Were countless the times you came into my dreams
were countless the times when I miss you
Your memory was enough to dream
For the first time I feel alive.

Can words have the power of destruction?
Can the indifference hurt so much?
and ... may your heart be so cruel to not love me?

We are separated from each other
the passage of days is but a slow death
I only found desperation in every act
I'm strong enough to withstand the distance
I'm strong enough to love you with my head held up
despite not to have a special place in your life.



Me pregunto si estaras pensando en mi en esta noche fria y solitaria
Algunas vez lo has hecho?
Fueron incontables las veces que irrumpiste en mis sueños
fueron infinitos los momentos en los que te extrañaba
tu recuerdo era motivo suficiente para soñar
Por primera vez pude sentirme viva.

Pueden acaso las palabras tener el poder de destruccion?
Puede la indiferencia lastimar tanto?
y ...puede tu corazon ser tan cruel para no amarme?

Estamos separados el uno del otro
el paso de los dias no es mas que una muerte lenta
Solo encuentro deseperacion en cada acto
soy lo suficientemente fuerte para soportar la distancia
soy lo suficientemente fuerte para amarte con la cabeza en alto
a pesar de no ocupar un lugar especial en tu vida.

I woke, I turned my head and I saw that there was no one beside me
I am alone, like yesterday and tomorrow also I will be .
If dream going to hurt so I dont want to continue dreaming
Is not the first time in a dream thata I can feel a passionate kiss
or a hug filled with love.
If open my eyes every morning means to spend another one day without love
I dont want to open my eyes anymore ,
The silence of an empty room
get home without someone waiting for me
seems to be what this meant for me.
Sometimes I wonder if I won't the only guilty, interestingly, the answer is in me.
Yes I am, I'm the only one to blame for my loneliness
but it is also true that no one could take the right path of this labyrinth that is my heart.
you make my armor to fade away my fears no longer exist but
quickly when I remember you telling me these words I dont want to hear
the pain paralyze all over my body and I want to run away from everything and everyone.
I know I look like a weak person, like a child who falls and you have to protect but who were living with a void almost all the life, is stronger than people think they are
I can live with the pain of a disappointment and I can keep dreaming and even I can wake with my bleeding heart ........










Desperté ,giré mi cabeza y vi que no habia nadie a mi lado
estoy sola, al igual que ayer y asi estaré mañana.
Si soñar va a lastimarme asi, no deseo seguir soñando
no es la primera vez que en un sueño puedo sentir un beso apasionado
o un abrazo lleno de cariño.
Si abrir mis ojos cada mañana significa que pasare una vez mas un dia sin amor
ya no quiero abrir mis ojos,
El silencio de una habitacion vacia
llegar a tu hogar sin que alguien espere por ti
parece ser lo que esta destinado para mi.
A veces me pregunto si no seré yo la culpable, curiosamente la respuesta esta en mi.
Si lo soy, soy la unica culpable de mi soledad
pero tambien es cierto que nadie supo tomar el camino correcto de este laberinto que es mi corazon.
haces que mi armadura se desvanezca, que mis miedos dejen de exist pero
rapidamente cuando te recuerdo diciendome esas palabras que no queria escuchar
el dolor paraliza todo mi cuerpo y quisiera correr lejos de todo y de todos.
Se que me ves como a una persona debil, como a un niño que cae y debes proteger pero quien convivio con un vacio practicamente toda su vida, es mas fuerte que quienes creen serlo
puedo convivir con el dolor de una desilucion y tambien puedo seguir soñando aunque despierte con mi corazon sangrando ........

Tu eres el resultado de ti mismo

Por Pablo Neruda

No culpes a nadie, nunca te quejes de nada ni de nadie porque fundamentalmente Tú has hecho tu vida.

Acepta la responsabilidad de edificarte a ti mismo y el valor de acusarte en el fracaso para volver a empezar, corrigiéndote.

El triunfo del verdadero hombre surge de las cenizas del error.

Nunca te quejes del ambiente o de los que te rodean, hay quienes en tu mismo ambiente supieron vencer, las circunstancias son buenas o malas según la voluntad o fortaleza de tu corazón.

No te quejes de tu pobreza, de tu soledad o de tu suerte, enfrenta con valor y acepta que de una u otra manera son el resultado de tus actos y la prueba que has de ganar.

No te amargues con tu propio fracaso ni se lo cargues a otro, acéptate ahora o seguirás justificándote como un niño, recuerda que cualquier momento es bueno para comenzar y que ninguno es tan terrible para claudicar.

Deja ya de engañarte, eres la causa de ti mismo, de tu necesidad, de tu fracaso.

Sí, Tú has sido el ignorante, el irresponsable, Tú únicamente Tú, nadie pudo haberlo sido por ti.

No olvides que la causa de tu presente es tu pasado, como la causa de tu futuro es tu presente.

Aprende de los fuertes, de los audaces, imita a los violentos, a los enérgicos, a los vencedores, a quienes no aceptan situaciones, a quienes vencieron a pesar de todo.

Piensa menos en tus problemas y más en tu trabajo, y tus problemas sin alimento morirán.

Aprende a nacer del dolor y a ser más grande, que es el mas grande de los obstáculos.

Mírate en el espejo de ti mismo.

Comienza a ser sincero contigo mismo reconociéndote por tu valor, por tu voluntad y por tu debilidad para justificarte.

Recuerda que dentro de ti hay una fuerza que todo puede hacerlo, reconociéndote a ti mismo, mas libre y fuerte, y dejaras de ser un títere de las circunstancias, porque Tú mismo eres el destino y nadie puede sustituirte en la construcción de tu destino.

Levántate y mira por las montañas y respira la luz del amanecer.

Tu eres parte de la fuerza de la vida.

Nunca pienses en la suerte, porque la suerte es el pretexto de los fracasados.

UN SUEÑO DENTRO DE UN SUEÑO (A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM) Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow --
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
_All_ that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep -- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
_One_ from the pitiless wave?
Is _all_ that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?






Toma este beso en tu frente!
Y, en el momento de abandonarte,
déjame confesarte lo siguiente:
no te equivocas cuando consideras
que mis días han sido un sueño;
y si la esperanza se ha desvanecido
en una noche o en un día,
en una visión o fuera de ella,
¿es por ello menos ida?
Todo lo que vemos o parecemos
no es más que un sueño en un sueño.
Yo permanezco en el rugido
de una ribera atormentada por las olas,
y aprieto en la mano
granos de arena de oro.
¡Qué pocos y cómo se escurren
entre mis dedos al abismo,
mientras lloro, mientras lloro!
¡Oh Dios!, ¿no puedo yo estrecharlos
con más ceñido puño?
¡Oh, Dios!, ¿no puedo salvar
ni uno, de la despiadada ola?
¿Todo lo que vemos o parecemos
no es más que un sueño dentro de un sueño?

Incubus - Warning

Bat your eyes girl.
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings.
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness...yeah

Over and over and over and over...........

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down

Those left standing will make millions
Writing books on ways it should have been

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
Soon the water starting to boil,
Now I flinched and we all float face down

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Pass you by.

Guns N' Roses - Patience

I miss you as hell, I need you as hell. hope you can understand that you are the one and only in my life, with you I can be myself . I love you
I'll have all the patience and I'll waiting until you come back. No matter how long I should wait..

The Rasmus Lost And Lonely

Do you wanna know how I feel the most of the time LOST AND LONELY. I thought you will rescue me from my loneliness but you sank me deeper into it .....

the rasmus - heartbreaker

I can relate with a couple of thing of this song....




Well anyway it's a long story.
She's been waiting for so long
Still got the songs in her mind and the autograph on the photograph
She's got a past full of secrets
She's got a clock on her feelings back from the days when she used to have wings
She had a dream full of anger
She had a dream full of action
Afraid to get old she feels so cold
Such a typical reaction

Oh yeah, oh yeah. She wanted to be a heartbreaker
Oh yeah. She was so greedy but a lousy lovemaker
Oh yeah, oh yeah. She wanted to be a heartbreaker

She used to be the queen of the scene
She had a key but she lost it
Nothing's gonna last and the time goes fast - she knows
She had a man but she messed it up again
She had a chance but she blew it
She's gotta little baby boy in her womb but she doesn't have a clue yet

Oh yeah...

Striking her down
Crushing her to the ground

A Broken heart for a Heartbreaker

blood runs through this broken heart
someone laugh at you heartbreaker
what are gonna do now?
you cant enjoy the pain of others anymore.
Is your turn to suffer, and it tastes bitter, isn't it?

who is devastated now?
who cries at night and who torments with bad thoughts?
Can you tell me who is next to the phone right now?
How many days have passed away since the last time you heard his voice?
That hurts, right?

everything turned black around, your tears are of blood
you can not react ..
someone gave you to drink your own poison, heartbreaker?
and now you begin to understand what rejection means,
who are dying while others are happy?
someone is denying you what you used to deny? .

who is devastated now?
who writes love songs and is alone in her room
to whom it belongs now the silence of loneliness?
How many days have passed away since you tore a heart that loved you honestly?


Heartbreaker don't cry
Nothing is real in your life
is time to face the truth
everything was your choice
there is no chance to change
and hide all your pain
everything is done.

your mind begins to blocking ,
and becomes distressing to know how much pain you caused by fear of not being loved
and although you knowing that the damage you've done someday it will return to you
and you continued hurting to calm your loneliness
to make you feel really strong when you really are the weakest





la sangre corre a traves de ese corazon roto
alguien se burló de ti rompecorazones
que haras ahora?
ya no puedes disfrutar el dolor ajeno
te toca a ti sufrir, y eso sabe amargo no es cierto ?

quien está devastado ahora?
quien llora en las noches y se atormenta con malos pensamientos?
Puedes decirme quien esta junto al telefono en este momento?
Cuantos dias pasaron ya desde la ultima vez que escuchaste su voEso duele, no es cierto?

todo se torno negro, tus lagrimas son de sangre
no puedes reaccionar..
alguien te dio de beber de tu propio veneno, rompecorazones
ahora comienzas a entender lo que significa el rechazo,
ahora eres tu quien esta agonizando mientras otros son felices
te estan negando lo que solías negar tu.

quien esta devastado ahora?
quien escribe canciones de amor y esta solo en su habitacion
a quien le pertenece ahora el silencio de la soledad?
Cuantos dias pasaron ya desde que destrozaste un corazon que te amaba honestamente?


tu mente comenzo a bloquearse,
se torna angustiante saber cuanto dolor causaste por miedo a no ser amado
y aunque sabias que todo el daño que has hecho algun dia volveria a ti
continuaste lastimando para calmar tu soledad
para sentirte fuerte cuando en verdad eres la persona mas debil

2x years of my life hating the world for refusing my dreams. 2x years wondering why I am a person steeped in negativity, distrust, insecurity and jealous. The answer in some ways I know, but I dont wanna accept it completely and easily. I'm in love. Never thought I feel this way , is supposed I should to be happy to have found the person that I was looking for ... But .... do not, in me round the ghost of jealousy and insecurity, I am not a woman capable of awakening love in someone. I feel like this , through my fault because my insecurity, my fear of not being loved makes me to see ghosts where there are non. My mind plays another trick on me but ... how do I get out of this? I wish I could but I can not enjoy it, I feel that I can never express my feelings, fear is a dangerous enemy and I'm not ready to face him yet......


2x años de mi vida odiando al mundo por negarme mis sueños. 2x años preguntandome por que soy un ser impregnado de negatividad, desconfianza,inseguridad y celos. La respuesta en cierto modo la sé, pero no quiero admitirla completamente y tan facilmente.
Estoy enamorada. Nunca pense sentirme asi como me siento, se supone que deberia estar contenta por haber encontrado a la persona que tanto busqué...pero....no, dentro de mi ronda el fantasma de los celos y la inseguridad, no me siento una mujer capaz de despertar amor en alguien. El me atrapo como nadie nunca lo hizo, y creanme que se de lo que estoy hablando. Pero tambien confieso que me siento asi , por mi culpa porque mi inseguridad , mi miedo a no ser amada me hace ver fantasmas donde no los hay. Mi mente me juega otra mala pasada pero...como hago para salir de esto? Desearia poder disfrutar pero no logro hacerlo, siento que nunca podre expresar mis sentimientos, el miedo es un enemigo peligroso al que aun no se como enfrentar

I don't know how to handle this feeling, I dont know. I get depressed and I am filled with dark thoughts most of the time. I have a terrible inferiority complex that doesn't leave me in peace. Now, I cant stop compare me with the ex-girlfriends of the person I love. He committed the error of showing me their photos and tell me about them, not noticing that I have this complex so destructive. I look them , and look at myself and I just want to cry . They are smarter than me, have more experience in love, are living in other countries and I? I'm here, and still unable to fly and face the world. I despair wondering what he saw in them. I know they are more beautiful than me, thats clear , perhaps because of their intelligence, they have a career and I'm just an idiot that feeds on their dreams. But I'm almost certain that they didn't treat him as I treat him , I know that sometimes I act like a child and I see the world differently. I have fear, I tried to be a special person to him but I couldn't. I honestly feel that this is so .... And this feeling is made worse when I realize that he is my inspiration and my desires to live and I hate that feeling. There are many reasons but perhaps the more painful is that I can not be his support, I cannot contain or teachs him nothing. My life was and remains different from his and the image I have of him bring me down even more. Because he makes me feel more complete, he has known how to hear me and made me feel protected and I'm desperate to see I am not the most special person for him as he is for me. That hurts and it hurts me.
If he only knew that I think of him every single second of my life and when I reminds his voice, his chats a sweet smile escapes from my lips maybe he can understand he makes me the happiest girl in the world and I would give my all to make him happy.

BLACK VEIL BRIDES "Perfect Weapon" OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO

I have the wonderful gift of destroying feelings.
I don't feel pleasure doing it,
it only convince me to deserve this loneliness

This is the dark side of me,
Wish I could stop these bad feelings that I really
I'm just a soul full of resentment, full of fear to spread its wings and know the reality
I'm just a soul looking for love, I don't want to suffer
but my own selfishness, the hate to myself
destroys me and destroys everyone who wants to love me

I could never decipher the codes of life
I am not in tune with the world
this does not seem to be a place for me ....

Cinema Bizarre - My Obsession

"My Obsession"

If you want me to listen whisper
If you want me to run just walk
Wrap your name in lace and leather
I can hear you
You don't need to talk

Let us make thousand mistakes
Cause we will never learn

You're my obsession
My fetish, my religion
My confusion, my confession
The one I want tonight
You are my obsession
The question and conclusion
You are, you are, you are
My fetish you are

You can kiss me with your torture
Tie me up to golden chains
Leave me beggin undercover
Wrong or right
It's all a role play

Let us make a thousand mistakes
We will never learn

You're my obsession
My fetish, my religion
My confusion, my confession
The one I want tonight
You're my obsession
The question and conclusion
You are, you are, you are
My fetish you are

Come to me tonight

You're my obsession
My fetish, my religion
My confusion, my confession
The one I want tonight
You're my obsession
The question and conclusion
You are, you are, you are
My fetish you are

Black Veil Brides Knives and Pens Live @ Bipolar 8 29 09

Injured Innocence

It was hard to face what happened. It was not the right way and I know it was my fault. I was silent out of fear. you begin to imagine and believe in your fantasies. And I did not dare to tell the truth. You, you thought my life was a mystery, when in fact it was like an open book. And the day that my innocence was hurt came. The day that your pleasure was my pain came . We loved each other in different ways. I felt ashamed to think that you could only laugh at my face if I told you what really happened to me. You did not know how to read my signs, you didn't know how to see the truth in my eyes and the saddest thing is you couldn't hear my heart. That is the reason why you could never understand my fears, that's the reason why you could never understand what it feels destroy a feeling that made you feel that there was a special place of refuge. That is the reason why you could never understand what it feels like an injured innocence.....

In Hiding

(by Pearl Jam)

I shut and locked the front door
No way in or out
I turned and walked the hallway
I knelt and emptied the mouth of every club around
but nothing's sound nothing's sound

I'd stay but my last cab left me
ignored all my rounds
soon I was seeing visions and cracks along the walls
they were upside down

I swallow my words to keep from lying
I swallow my face just to keep from biting I... I
I swallowed my breath and went deep, I was diving , diving
I surfaced when all of my being was enlightened

I'm in hiding
I'm in hiding
I'm in hiding

It's been about three days now
since I've been aground
no longer overwhelmed and it seems so simple now
It's funny when things change so much
it's all state of mind

I swallowed my words to keep from lying
I swallowed my face just to keep from biting I..I..
I swallow my breath and went deep I was diving I was diving
I surfaced and all around my being was enlightened

Now I'm in hiding
I'm in hiding
I'm in hiding
I'm in hiding
I'm Inhiding
I'm in hiding

The voice within

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWixUIMTjYc

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right there when your world starts to fall
Youn girl, it's all right
your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
look inside yourself
like your oldest friend
just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
that will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
to trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
Yo'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
and soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world whre innocence is quickly claimed
it's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
no one reaches out a hand for you to hold
when you're lost outside look inside to your soul
where there's no one else
look inside yourself
like your oldest friend
just trust the voice within
ten you'll find the strength
that will guide your way
if you will learn to begin
to trust the voice within
yeah...
Life is a journey
it can tak you anywhere you choose to go
as long as you're learning
you'll find all you'll never need to know
when there's no one else
look insideyour self
like your oldest friend
just trust the voice within
then you'll find the strength
that will guide your way
if yo learn to begin
to trust the voice within
Youn girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall .....

Another day.....

Another day of pain, another day of impotence, another day that I feel useless
I refuse to awaken. I can't find enthusiasm in my life.There is nothing That can make me smile.
I can hardly breathe.The air is polluted with loneliness.I'm tired, I feel once again I lost the battle. My tired Body becomes weaker every second of this miserable life.
I have no hopes, life taste bitter to me. I turn around I can't think, my mind is completely blocked. The world is frozen as every beat of my heart. My dreams are dead. I'm a solitary person who watches from the shadows ,crying, waiting to escape for a moment and know the happiness. Maybe I'm not ready to change or maybe I don't want.
Let me come back to my shelter in the shadows of my loneliness. Let me wait for another day , maybe tomorrow I can see a light in the darkness.

Missed Family

Blood Betrayed
heart banished
screams,fights and forgot respect
that explain my pain
my dear missed family
brains washed for the ambition
broken bonds
all of you are my disappointment
How many times I needed you ?
and you gave your back?

there are no memories
the old pictures lies
I curse you
thanks to all of you family means shit to me
nothing can save us
this is just a family who got lost in the dark

Small world of frustration

Macabre game of the mind
victory of the loneliness
you can't feel worse
your world starts to fall
you become a prisoner of the worst feelings


Fear Abused you
Rancor destroyed you
you can runaway from this
small world of frustration

no dreams
no love
no happiness
your life can be understood only about repression
never fulfilled dreams and goals never reached
sometimes envy embrace you
and you hate evrybody who looks happy
you want to erase their smile
and live their life
but... they aren't to blame
is frustration who paralyze your mind , your life
you can't overcome yourself.

The Funeral of Hearts-H.I.M

Love's the funeral of hearts

and an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood

on flowers of evil in blood

The funeral of hearts

and a plea for mercy

when love is a gun

separating me from you

She was the sun

shining upon

the tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail

he was the moon

painting you

with it's glow so vulnerable and pale

Love's the funeral of hearts

and an ode for cruelty

when angels cry blood

on flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts

and a plea for mercy

when love is a gun

separating me from you

She was the wind , carrying in

all the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget

he was the fire, restless and wild

The heretic seal beyond divine

a prayer to a god who's deaf and blind

the last rites for souls on fire

three little words and a question why

love's the funeral of hearts

and a n ode for cruelty

when angels cry blood

one flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts

and a plea for mercy

when love is a gun

separating me from you

No Fear..... Destination Darkness......

As a poetic term Darkness mean the presence of shadows, evil, depression,loneliness.....

For me Darkness.....


Mean.......feel that your words were ignored
Mean...... that you scream and noone hears you,
Mean....noone undrestand you,
Mean......that they always say that everything is your fault who makes things worse and they are unaware of their mistakes
Mean ....cry when you can't expressed yourself
Mean.....that someone hurts you
Mean.....fear
Mean......that they think you play a very well role of victim
Mean....that in their world you are the "strange" and they make fun of you while you try to respect their choices.
Mean .....Sadness
Mean.... that you need a hug and they give you indifference
Mean.... that you feel out of place
Mean.....that you want to run away when they fight
Mean.... feeling lost
Mean.... you wanna be somebody else,
Mean....that sometimes noone talks to you.
Mean ..... that they want to change you,
Mean.... that they rarely spent time with you when you really need them
Mean... that your own world is the better place for you while they call it "a fantasy world"
Mean......that you are your own enemy and your best(and only ) Friend
Mean....that your tears are made of blood
Mean ...Pain
Mean...... Frustration
Mean ..... that you feel an idiot and you can face the world

I'm here to hear you, and share with you my pain, my deepest feelings,my sadness when I see that all my dreams are broken, I'm here to hold your hand cry together, To understand you,I'm here to let you know that you are in your new home .....WELCOME TO THE DARKNESS